Surprise O!

Well, I wrote the update below before I put my temperature in to my chart. My chart indicated that I O'd on CD15!! Since they didn't monitor until CD19, it's entirely possible that what they saw was a corpus luteum that was shrinking from my CD15 O!!!

I'm now 6dpo!

One more week until I test!

This Cycle

I guess I forgot to update on my CD19 appointment.. but I guess at this point, there's not really much to tell. The ultrasound was inconclusive. The tech said she believed that she saw a corpus luteum, which likely means I ovulated.... but it was so small (only 12mm) so she said it could also have been one from a previous cycle.

If I go by my chart, I haven't ovulated yet.. if my chart is right, then that 12mm is from a previous cycle, and I have no mature follicles for this cycle.

I won't really know anything more concrete until the end of this cycle when I see my RE and get b/w results as well as the overall result of the cycle.

More job cuts

Ugh. If it's not worrying about term renewals, then it's on to worrying about federal job cuts. I hate that pure evil was voted in to a majority government.

I guess in my absence from work yesterday, there was another stand up meeting in which the big guy told us all that they need to cut another 5% of jobs. Awesome. We had more job creation during the recession than we do now that we're coming out of it!

/vent.

My Mother

My mother's answer to infertility always seems to be to avoid it. Whenever I have ever talked to my mother about having children, she always tells me some reason of why she wishes she'd waited until she was at least 35 to have kids..... Hint hint?

Well, 35 is not the age that I want a child at. So what? If I don't decide to wait until 35 then I can't receive any kind of emotional support from my mom?

Okay, I shouldn't say that. I did get a one-liner when I told my mother that I had PCOS, was having trouble getting pregnant and that 3 rounds of clomid so far have not work. She said: "Your time will come. Don't worry. Enjoy your freedom while you have it."

Ugh. I swear, if I never had children, my mother would dance around in circles. It's bad enough that she wishes she'd waited until she was 35 to have kids, which means that my brother and I would likely never have existed... gee... thanks mom.

I don't know if it's just infertility that makes me sensitive to the types of comments that she makes, but sometimes it would be nice to just shake her and ask her wtf her problem is. Maybe you don't want me to have kids, because you didn't want them... BUT I DO.. and therefore, as my mother, it would be really nice if you could be there for me in any real way.

On the other hand, DH's mother can't wait for us to have kids. She's always asking about how we're doing, and she never gives me the generic "it will happen when it happens" kind of thing. I guess I just feel sad that it's more fun to talk to DH's mom about my future kids, and my own mother could care less.

I'm sure I'm being over dramatic, and I'm sure my mother would be super happy for me if I told her I was pregnant... but I don't need her then, I need her now.

PrettyCrappyOvulationSucks (PCOS) :)

CD16. No O.

I seem to be Oing later and later on Clomid. I guess the good news is I'm still Oing right? Although, I was Oing before Clomid as far as I could tell.

I hope that if this cycle doesn't work out, my doctor tries something else.

Spinning!

I'm getting better at spinning yarn! The wheel is getting easier to use, and I managed to make this ball more even and thinner. I'm sure it could make a beautiful baby hat, or child's mitts. I can make more, but not tonight. LOL I'm so happy with how the purple and grey turned out together. :)

Chicagobound!

I found out today that my conference for work got approved! I'll be in Chicago from June 23rd to the 27th!

I'll have the 23rd to get out an explore things, so I hope I get nice weather. I'll be bringing my camera of course. :) It's been a while since I've gone outside the country... well.. any further than Ogdensburg anyway.

Hopefully I'll get a BFP this month too! Maybe I'll find out when I'm in Chicago! :D